This post is delicated to my 小花, who passed away on the 4 Oct 2007... ...
the first time i set upon your crystal blue eyes was on the 13 oct 2006, after i returned home from TJC open house. when i peeped into the cardbox, i saw you and 大黑, both meownig away and staring at me. i remembered that you refused to drink the milk my mum had poured, and that i had to feed you the next morning, fearing that you might be hungry. finally, you learnt to drink the milk from the plate and i became less worried. back then, when you first entered my life, u were only 1month old.
one week had passed... two weeks had passed.... i began to wonder if i could keep both u and 大黑. In the past, my parents were strongly against havuing pet cats at home as my sister has asthma. but i couldnt bare to leave them in the park, where they have to fend for themselves and are exposed to the weather. i hoped, deep down in my heart, that nothing would go wrong and that my parents would change their mind. In the end, my parents couldnt bare to return them back to the park and both you and 大黑 became my very first pet cats........
things began to change after u and 大黑 arrived. our house became a more vibrant place and everyday was filled with joy and laughter. your cuteness and 大黑's clumsiness never failed to cheer the whole family up. it was one of the happiest moment of my life, as my childhood wish finally came true.......
u grew bigger and bigger........ and your eyes began to change to yellow colour when u were 3 months old. u were onli the size of my hand back then. and then came the first trip to the vet for a health check up. both u and 大黑 were so afraid of the vet. yet you were the fighter (as the vet had comment) despite being afraid......
times flew by quickly..... you and 大黑 were already 5 months old. it was time for your sterlisation. then a few months had passed, u and 大黑 began to explore beyond our house.both of you grew bigger and bigger.... but still, you remained as cute as ever.
i was always there for you, and you would always look for me when you couldnt find 大黑. i would always let u sleep on my bed although it is forbidden. when i am taking a nap or sleeping, you would jump up yo my bed and sleep beside me. everytime i reached home, you would run towards the door to welcome me....
but why is fate so curel to you??
on the 4 oct 2007 , i woke up from my sleep. i took my uniform and whent to the kitchen's toliet. i saw u standing on top of the washing machine(which is just beside the kitchen window) and igently touched your head, saying hi to you. after i came out, i couldnt see you. and i thought, maybe you are somewhere in the house. so i did not look for you and ate my breakfast. after which, i tired looking for you in the house again, but i couldnt find you....
when i return home, my mum told me that you were missing..... the whole family conduct a thorough search around the flat, but it was furtile. my mum began to speculate things, but i refused to think that way....
the next day, i went to school, hoping that i might find you again.... but when i called home at around 1230pm, my mum broke the news. i nearly cried out loud (actually i did teared), but i restrained myself. when i finally returned home, i couldnt bear it anymore....
Why.... Why did this happen to you.... why? why is it that u have to suffer a horrible death?? AND WHY IS IT THAT I COULDNT EVEN RETRIVED YOUR BODY IN TIME AND GIVE U A PROPER BURIAL!!! WHY!! i really regret not looking out of the window that morning... if i saw you, i might be able to bring you to the vet and saved you in time! WHY is it that the night before your death, when u were in my room, i chose to study instead of spending time with you. i never thought that parting with you is soo painful ........ i know that this is inevitable and i thought i have prepared myself for this... but still... you left me so suddenly..... so sudden that i was completely caught off guard.......
why, i ask myself. why...........................................................
To a cat that i will never forget..... 小花
17:18,
love is floating in the air
